SRSLY?

okay so not really.
okaaaaaaaaayyyy
maybe i am.
but i am patient.

i was in NCPAG doing my mom's job of printing somethings when this exchange student from africa i think asked for my name and shiz. he said he wanted to keep contact with me. and sorta got my number from my mom.

like come on! why can't guys who could speak english AND tagalog be like that to me? am i not attractive to a filipino's eyes, or do i really look masungit?

i also did something that i shouldn't have done. now i know his grades ever since his first year in the university and now i despise him..okaaaayyy not really him but his lazyness. everything was good in his first year but things started to get out of hand after that. and now i don't think i'll see him next sem. he still hasn't enrolled yet. and for some reason i doubt that he will. OR if he ever does he'll do the addmat thing. whatever. as of now i know that he's not my classmate in any of my subjects. which is good. means i won't get to see him. so.. yaaay....

there are a ton of things i want to do with my life. a lot of things i want to do. a lot of things i want to learn. but sadly i don't know where to start. and to add to that i don't know where my life is going. i know i want to go to culinary school. i wanna be a profesional baker but what will happen after that? will i ever reach that? will my ideas of different recepies actually become something tangible and edible? can i be just like jamie oliver? an unconventional HOT chef with a fun life? i want to be a pastry chef. i want to bake cakes and cookies and muffins. i also want to learn how to work with chocolate and sugar. i want to make colorful creations that would entice both the eyes and the taste buds. i want to make people happy with food. but i also want to work in the philippines. but i know that i can't have both...

*ciao for now
niXXie