broken

my eyes are broken just like eijii's ears, it's uncontrolably releasing liquids. but like something normal my liquid excretion is triggered by something. in this case it's eijii's blog entry... the emoness... this sucks.

i know i'm not gonna leave manila happy. i've embraced that fact last thursday when all of this emoness started, i know i'm gonna be depressed for the next few days. i know not even an overdose of drugs is gonna make this depression poof away...

my friends and i have seperation issues... for some odd reason i'm getting the 'i will never see you again why are you leaving' treatment instead of the 'i'll miss you but we'll see you next week' treatment... i think there's a mixup. oh well we're warped.

i hate crying but for some odd reason i like this emoness right now... gives you this huge hug and a feeling of being luved... i like experiencing this once in a while but if it happens frequently my leaking eyes and soon to be leaking nosdrils are not gonna be able to take it.

i'm happy the my friends are happy everytime i make crazy plans or i make gatong to their obsession. i'm happy when they are happy. plus i'm happy that i'm the one who is making them happy... the word happy is kinda weird now saying it so many times... happy happy happy happy. weird ne?

i'n a few hours i'll be in the car starting my college journey,i'm excited scared and depressed. mixed emotions much. at least i'll have some pictures to take me out of depression... hope that works.

eijii: you don't know how much liquid my eyes excrete everytime you go emo mode on me. specially the part of me making you fangirly happy and you love me more than you love me more than you love sungmin... oh and the impakta part helps haha. i'll miss a lot of stuff.. specially the everynight/day ym conversations. but i'll see you everytime i'm back. plus most of the time i think we'll have plans. quiapo and buisiness things hehe..

rin-chan: i'll miss our constant everynight talks... jumong will only be a one night event instead of the 5 night fun hour. we'll still have allnighters on weekends right? plus we'll see eachother when we have plans and stuff... the condo thing... haha the only pic you don't have is kibum hankyung(which i don't have also) and heechul right? hehe... i'll find a way to give it to you.

my luggage is set. 3 bags, a paper bag, a suitcase and some other stuff... i'm leaving home... i'm starting to embrace the change of not being able to pester my family 7 days a week. but i think that's good. i'll give them a time to reflect how much the love me and stuff. i know our house is gonna be hell of a lot quieter despite the constant jeepney and motorcycle noises.

my sister would miss me, no one else can make her laugh in this houshold except me. no one makes here angrier too.. haha. i love her so much. i'll miss the constant bickering and the shouting.

my brother... how could he survive? haha... he worries too much. but i think it'll be okei..

my parents. let's just say that they won't notice the difference much since they're always playing cards so yeah...

*~ciao for now

niXXie

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